If you have been following along, you may have noticed some changes to the list! My May Fear was supposed to be a Karate type class. I found a really great, too good to be true Groupon for a location not too far from my house. I called the location and spoke to the owner and got the nights and times of the adult classes.
And then I put it off.
And waited until the last possible day in May for me to go. I went in and spoke to the owner and he showed me where to wait while the teens finished. I waited almost 20 minutes, while the teen class ran late.
He then told me that there were no other adults, there were rarely other adults, and if I came back the following Wednesday, his one adult (black belt) would be back from a cruise. And then he showed me the door.
I knew that Groupon was too good to be true.
So now I'm stuck.
During this same last week of May, I was packing for my trip to Colorado.
The closer it got, the more stressed out I got. I've only met a few Ambasadors, and never met the Founder, Nicole, or the Ambassador Program Director, Noelle.
Plus, there are some seriously intimidating Ambassadors at this Retreat. These ladies run ultras and Iron Mans. Ambassador Emily Harvey just finished an Iron Man... with one leg! Don't even get me started on Mirna Valerio. These ladies are incredible.
Technically, the Retreat started on June 1, but since the Karate Debacle was not my fault, I've decided to let it slide.
The original plan was for the hubs, my adorable safety net, to drive me there and then meet a friend for dinner while he waited. When he found out that Boulder was 40 minutes away, he got the friend to pick him up and I was on my own.
So I went to the store.... and I shopped....
And I got an amazing swag bag...
And then I stood around like the derpy person I am. There was a photo booth, but you had to find someone dressed like you to use it. Omg. I walked up to a total stranger, who was dressed like me, and I got her to come take a pic with me.
I saw a few familiar faces, but they all came with friends, so I stood around a little longer wishing that the dinner would start. I felt ridiculous, although I shouldn't have. I managed to join up with a few others who were alone and we walked over to get dinner together. Smarter women had saved their seats at tables so I ended up standing at a high top in the back. No biggie. A few ladies joined me so at least I wasn't alone! Plus, we were in the shade.
The evening was fun, and we got a sneak peek of some future prints and styles, and then some fun awards. And then it was over. I survived day one!
Day 2 was in Westminster. It was breakfast, some amazing speakers, yoga, Shark Tank, and then lunch.
Day 2 was literally everything in life that terrifies me. I took very few pics! We started with breakfast, which was bagels, Noosa yogurt, coffee and OJ, tea from the Tea Spot....
Hmmmm... I'm sure there was more but I don't remember!
We all sat and I was alone again! Soon some very nice ladies came and sat near me, but they were all together so I still felt sort of silly! I really need to get over this.
Our first speaker talked about how tough her life was as a teen and young adult, and how she ended up making some really bad choices, but turned her life around. No details, what happens at Skirt Sports stays at Skirt Sports.
Mirna did an amazing talk about Body Image and we had to do some activities with the person next to us.
Becky and I hit it off, which made this part easier!
Time for yoga. Except they wanted Ambassador Captains to skip yoga and talk about the program. I got to sit around with Nicole, Noelle, and the other captains and talk about the Ambassador program. It was a lot of fun and an ambassador told me she was excited to finally meet me and had been looking for me since the night before! (What?!?) That felt amazing, I'm not gonna lie.
Next we moved back inside for Shark Tank.
Each group was randomly chosen before hand and we all got about 30 minutes to come up with a product that we think Skirt Sports should make. Name, colors, price point etc. Then we had to present it to Nicole, Noelle, and some other employees of Skirt Sports.
Some ideas were genius, some hysterical. It was so much fun!
Our final speaker was an amazing former triathlete who hosts retreats now. She was super sweet and motivating and she gave us all a guardian angel to bring on race day.
Afterwards, we all got lunch bags to go. There was an ambassador hike but I didn't want the hubs to be alone all day without a car, so I skipped it.
I definitely glossed over a lot of details, since I knew this would be so long. The important thing is that I stepped way out of my comfort zone for this. There were so many times that I wanted to melt into the background, but I forced myself to fake it until I made it.
If you've met me, you might find all of this hard to believe. I can be super shy until I'm comfortable, and then I'm just loony tunes. I can be myself and have fun.
If it's a new situation, I have been known to make myself sick with worry about it. Headaches and stomach aches are frequent occurrences. I have missed out on many occasions because I was too nervous and too scared to just suck it up and go.
Hopefully a year of Facing My Fears will help with that!